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  Fighting Silence

  Copyright © 2015 Aly Martinez

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  Fighting Silence is a work of fiction. All names, characters, places, and occurrences are the product of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to any persons, living or dead, events, or locations is purely coincidental.

  Cover photo by Sara Eirew

  Cover Model: Mat Wolf

  Cover Design by Ashley Baumann at Ashbee Designs

  Edited by Mickey Reed at I’m a Book Shark

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  Table of Contents

  Other Books

  Prologue

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  2

  3

  4

  5

  6

  7

  8

  9

  10

  11

  12

  13

  14

  15

  16

  17

  18

  19

  20

  21

  22

  23

  24

  25

  26

  27

  28

  29

  30

  31

  32

  33

  Epilogue

  Coming Soon

  Acknowledgements

  About the Author

  Other Books by Aly Martinez

  The Wrecked and Ruined Series

  Changing Course

  Stolen Course

  Broken Course

  Savor Me

  “GET OUT OF THE CAR.” The cool, metal tip of a gun pressed against my temple.

  “I don’t have any money,” I quickly announced, cautiously lifting my hands in the air.

  “Get. The. Fuck. Out of the car!” a large, well-dressed man yelled manically before snatching the door to my truck open.

  “Take whatever you want, man,” I said as I stepped out.

  “Oh, I plan to. Where the fuck is my money?” He swung the butt of his gun toward my face, but he was too slow. It breezed past me as I ducked to the side.

  The forward momentum sent him stumbling, and I made my move before he could recover his balance. I landed a hard fist to his face, but just as I followed it with a right hook, I heard the gun fire.

  “Till!” my dad yelled from somewhere in the distance.

  He needed to get the fuck out of there. We both did.

  “He’s got a gun!” I warned as I scrambled after the man. I had no idea if I’d been shot already, but I knew for certain that I would be if I didn’t get the gun away from him.

  I was able to knock him off his feet, but I wasn’t quick enough to keep him from regaining control of the weapon.

  “Move one more goddamn inch and I swear I’ll it make your last,” he promised, aiming directly at my head from less than a foot away.

  I had no choice but to still.

  “Fuck!” he shouted, dabbing his mouth with his thumbs. The blood was pouring from his nose, but he simply wiped it on the back of his sleeve then shoved the gun against my chest. “Walk,” he ordered with a deep snarl, motioning to the dark warehouse.

  “No,” I replied firmly. “I’m not going anywhere with you. Take my truck, my wallet, whatever you want.”

  “You know what I want, motherfucker? My. Fucking. Money.”

  “I don’t have your money!”

  “Bullshit!” He grabbed the back of my hair and shoved the gun under my chin. “That bag you stole from Clay Page belonged to me! Just give me the goddamn cash and you walk away without a hole in your fucking head.”

  Two simple words sent ice through my veins.

  Clay Page.

  He was the only reason I was there in the first place. About an hour earlier, he’d called me for a ride home. He’d sounded desperate and offered me twenty bucks. I’d figured he was drunk, but with a gun pressing into my neck, it became blindingly obvious that I wasn’t just at the wrong place at the wrong time.

  I’d been set up.

  By my own father.

  “I didn’t steal anything from him.”

  “You don’t have to lie, Till. Just give Frankie the money,” my dad said, limping out of the warehouse. His face was badly beaten, and blood dripped from what appeared to be a gunshot wound to his leg.

  My body stiffened at the sight, but so did Frankie’s fist in my hair.

  “What the fuck are you talking about?” I growled at my dad. “You know I don’t have his money!”

  He continued toward us until the gun was suddenly removed from my under my chin and leveled on him.

  “Don’t come any closer, Clay. I will drop your ass right fucking there.”

  Slowly, he stopped and lifted his hands in the air.

  With a hard shove, I was pushed forward to join him on the wrong side of the weapon. It was then that I got my first real look at the triggerman.

  An unusual dragon tattoo peeked out from under the sleeve of his dress shirt and continued onto the back of his hand. The green monster was breathing flames down each of his shaking fingers, and the gun waved unsteadily. His eyes were wide and glassy, flashing nervously between us. It was a cool night, but he was drenched in sweat. The guy was worse than just pissed off—he was strung out and unpredictable.

  “Look, dude. I’ve got, like, two hundred bucks in my truck. Just take it.”

  He tilted his head menacingly. “Two hundred bucks? Two. Hundred. Bucks? There was over forty thousand dollars in that fucking bag! And you want to give me two hundred?” He rushed forward, not stopping until his hand was around my throat and the gun planted firmly in the center of my forehead. “That’s not even a payment!” Spit flew from his mouth as he lost any sense of composure he had left.

  “Just calm down!” I pleaded. “I don’t have your money! I never did!”

  He swung the gun back to my dad. “That true? I’m putting a fucking bullet in whichever one of you is lying to me.”

  “No. He has it. I swear!” My father shouted his cowardly lie with such conviction that I almost believed him.

  I’d always known that Clay Page was a piece of shit. I’d hated him since I was old enough realize what a manipulative snake he truly was. But against my better judgment, with only the promise of twenty bucks as incentive, I’d ultimately gotten myself into that situation by not trusting my gut.

  Never again.

  And right then, my gut was screaming to stay true to what I had been doing since I’d entered the world eighteen years earlier. If I was going to die that night, I was going down fighting.

  Slamming my head forward, I head-butted Frankie squarely in the nose. The gun fired over my shoulder, but at that moment, I couldn’t have cared less about where the bullet lodged—and that included in Clay Page’s head.

  It had taken only three punches to the face before he fell to the ground, dragging me down with him. I heard the gun skitter across the pavement, and before I landed on top of him, I had planted another fist to his mouth. His head cracked hard against the concrete, but I didn’t let it deter me. He eventually stopped fighting back, but the only thing that snapped me out of it was the sound of sirens in the distance.

  I stood up, covered in blood, and headed back to my truck. I spared one glance over my shoulder for the man who had brought me there that night. He was holding his stomach and rolling on the ground. He’d made it obvious that he didn’t care about me. And as I walked away, I was all too willing to return the favor.

  After I’d hoisted myself back into the cab, my truck drove itself down the familiar roads. My father’s betrayal filtered through my brain with every turn. I had no idea where I was headed; after that night, I didn’t belong anywhere.

  I hated my life and all that it was—but especially what it wasn’t.

  God had already damned me to a future that would gradually fall silent. Teasing me with the present and taunting me with everything I would eventually lose. Even before my own fucking father had been willing to sign my death warrant just to save his own hide, I had already been drowning in the ocean of life. Every gasp of air was a struggle. Just as I would breach the surface, filling my lungs with hope and determination to make it through another day, I was forced back under—harder every time.

  There was only one place where the world didn’t suck the life out of me. Regardless of how long I was there, seconds or hours, it offered me a reprieve and recharged my will.

  I wanted to go home.

  But home wasn’t where I laid my head every night. I didn’t actually live there at all, but it was the only place I felt alive. What I needed was the dream that only existed inside those four walls.

  I needed her.

  It had been six months since I’d last crawled out of that window. Six months since I’d watched her naked body take from me more than I’d ever thought I could offer.

  Those same six months of living in the real world had destroyed me.

  I needed the fantasy only she could provide.

  But no matter what I dreamed, I knew she wouldn’t be there.

  Fuck it. Pride aside. I’d go to her.

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bsp; With a sharp U-turn over the median, I finally gave in to the pull that threatened to overtake me on a daily basis. I knew where she lived. I knew where she laid her head every night. But above all of that . . . I knew where I belonged.

  With Eliza.

  Five years earlier . . .

  WHEN I WAS THIRTEEN YEARS old, I met Till Page in a condemned apartment one building over from my own. I immediately recognized him from school. It had been hard not to—he’d been gorgeous even as a boy. It was long before he found the gym or his tattered clothing came back in style. Back then, he was just a scrawny kid with shaggy hair and a wicked grin.

  I didn’t know what kind of life Till had, but I knew it was probably better than my own. My parents were decent people; they just didn’t have time for me. Or, probably more accurately, any desire to make time for me. I was always a burden on them. Most nights, I hid away in my room, listening to them fight over money—or their lack thereof. I loved sneaking away to that run-down apartment. It was my own private fortress of solitude—until Till showed up one afternoon.

  He scared me to death when he came crawling in that window. His eyes were red and his cheeks were notably stained with tears.

  “Who the hell are you?” he asked, dusting off his already filthy pants.

  I jumped to my feet, spilling my sketchpad and the few colored pencils I had managed to smuggle out of art class all over the peeling linoleum floor.

  “Crap!” I yelled, rushing to pick them up. When I finished collecting my prize possessions, I glanced up to find him drying his eyes on the backs of his sleeves.

  “You tell anyone I was crying and I’ll tell everyone you tried to kiss me.”

  “I didn’t try to kiss you!” I shouted, appalled at the very idea—and maybe a little interested too.

  “Then keep quiet or the whole school will think you did.”

  My mouth must have gaped open at his attempted blackmail because he quickly finished with, “You might want to close your mouth before that spider on your shoulder takes it as an invitation.”

  At the mere mention of a spider, I began screaming and flailing around the dingy room. I tore my shirt over my head, only vaguely aware that his roar of laughter had been silenced.

  “Uh . . .” he stuttered when I finally stilled.

  It didn’t take but a second for me to realize that I was standing in my bra.

  “Oh, God!” I squeaked as I turned away, covering my chest with my arms.

  “Here.” He tossed my shirt, which hit me in the back and sent me into another fit of spider hysteria all over again.

  “The spider could still be on there!” I screamed at the wall.

  “Or it could be in your hair.”

  It was then that I decided to give up on covering my barely-there breasts and started ruffling my hair, shaking free any possible unwelcome insect.

  He howled with laughter.

  “Stop laughing!” I hissed.

  He once again picked my shirt up, but this time, he thoroughly inspected it before tossing it back at me. “Spider-free. Till Page guaranteed.”

  I gave him a side eye but finally replied, “Thanks,” as I pulled it back over my head, wishing I could set it on fire instead.

  “No problem. At least, now if you decide to run your mouth, I won’t have to lie when I tell the whole school you flashed me your bra.”

  “You wouldn’t.” I shot him an evil glare that made him smile.

  “Try me,” he said with a staggering confidence I’d never seen in a boy my age. Not that I had any plans of telling anyone anyway, but with one look, he solidified that even further.

  “Whatever.” I walked back to my small, makeshift storage cabinet and began emptying the contents.

  “What are you doing?” he asked curiously while I stacked all of my old sketchbooks and barely there stumps of leftover pencils.

  “I’m taking my stuff so you don’t steal it.”

  “I won’t steal your crap. I’m not a thief,” he responded, and there was something in his voice that made me feel guilty for having suggested otherwise.

  “Right. Well. I’m not chancing it. I didn’t know anyone else came here.” I looked around the room for something to carry the little pile I had accumulated, but as I turned, everything went rolling to the floor. “Ugh,” I groaned, immediately diving after them.

  “You don’t have to take your stuff. I won’t mess with it.” He squatted down and began helping me collect them. “Besides, I don’t have much use for a centimeter-long, pink pencil.” He lifted the remnant off the ground and held it out for me. His eyes were warm, completely unlike the ones that had been teasing me only minutes before.

  “Thanks,” I replied, eyeing him suspiciously. However, without anywhere else to store my drawings, I was forced to take his word for it.

  My mother hated that I spent so much time poring over my art. Every chance she got, she threw my supplies away. I thought it had less to do with me drawing and more to do with my father being an out-of-work artist who refused to get a job doing anything else.

  “So, do you come here a lot?” Till asked, pulling off a beanie and running a hand through his dark, unkempt hair.

  “Well, I did.” I rolled my eyes, but he narrowed his and remained silently staring at me from a few feet away. It was the most awkward standoff of my adolescent life, but he didn’t budge, and neither did I.

  Suddenly, a woman’s angry shrill vibrated against the windows, scaring us both.

  “Till, get your ass back home right now!”

  He quickly grabbed my hand and dragged me flat against the back wall, hiding us from view.

  With a finger over his mouth, he urged, “Shhh.” He leaned away only long enough to peer out the corner of the window. “Get down,” he ordered then pulled me to the floor beside him.

  After a few seconds, we heard her voice moving farther away and he let out a relieved sigh.

  “Was that your mom? She sounded mad. You should probably get going.”

  “She always sounds like that, which is exactly why I’m not heading home. She just wants me to watch my brothers so she can follow my dad around and make sure he’s not seeing Mrs. Cassidy anymore.”

  “Mrs. Cassidy? Isn’t she married?”

  “Yep,” he answered nonchalantly.

  “As in your girlfriend, Lynn Cassidy? Her mom?”

  “Yep,” Till repeated, not reacting in the least to my disgusted tone. “Hey. How do you know Lynn’s my girlfriend?”

  “Because we’ve been going to school together since kindergarten.” I gave him yet another disgusted look and rolled my eyes.

  “I knew it! I thought you went to East Side too!”

  I knew everything about Till Page, yet he thought we went to school together. How flattering.

  “What’s your name?” he asked as I sat down against the wall, pulling my pad and pencils into my lap.

  “Cindy Lou,” I responded, not looking back up and desperately wishing he would leave.

  “No, it’s not.”

  “Daphne?”

  “Not it, either.”

  “Ivy?” I smarted one last time, pretending to be busy by doodling lightning bolts.

  “Nope,” he responded but didn’t inquire any further. “So, you mind if I hang out for a little while?”

  “It’s a free world, Till. I don’t exactly own the place,” I said, disinterested—even though, on the inside, I was anything but.

  “Okay.” He sank down against the opposite wall.

  For thirty minutes, he sat there staring at me. It was unnerving, but I tried not to let him see that. I did my absolute best to ignore him, but as my pencil moved over the paper, his eyes began to form within the lines.

  Eventually, he got up and headed back to the window.

  “See you tomorrow,” he called over his shoulder.

  At school the next day, Till didn’t acknowledge me at all. It wasn’t like I’d expected him to come sit with me at lunch or anything. We weren’t friends, but it still stung when he walked right past me, not even bothering to spare a glance in my direction. Maybe it was for the best, though, after the fool I’d made of myself the day before.

  That night, as per usual, I made my way to the abandoned apartment as soon as my parents started arguing about the power bill. When I walked in, I saw a small, plastic bag on the ground. On a torn-out piece of notebook paper was a handwritten note.